Cause We're All Fucked Up

And do you really think that it's worth it,
to be all worried about time, worried about time?

Anthony Green, true love, all day every damn day.

Tomorrow is my last final and last quiz, and then I will have completed my freshman year of college. I will then go home, and immediately begin trying to work, and in another week or so, start taking Chemistry. This is going to be quite the summer. I'm gonna go see about getting my license Thursday on my way home, as well as registering for my class. If I can have my license by June-ish, this summer will be SO much more fun, as well as easier on my mom, as far as shuttling me around goes.

I'll be blogging about my entire freshman year soon enough, probably sometime this weekend if not sooner.

I want things that I cannot have. It's bothering me a whoooole lot, mostly because I don't want to want these things, but I want them anyway. I'm just confused. I need to slow down and make the decision that's right for me, even if it's not what I want at the time. Looking at the long run, I need to do the things I don't want to now, in order to get to a place where my life is exactly how I'd like it. And it's sad because I know I'm worthy, and I know certain things could be good now, but I also know there's a slim chance they ever will be. That tears at my heart just a little bit. I'm a big girl though. I make big girl decisions and do big girl things, and do the shit I don't wanna do, because I know it's right, and I know I have to grow up at some point in time. Why not start small now?

To a few people: [I'm feeling like this is going to become a recurring thing. Just go with it, lol]

--Fall, the fuck, back.

--What do you want?

--Open your fucking EYES. [This goes to more than one person.]

--I miss you, oddly enough. It'll pass. Always does.

--I want you to do everything you ever wanted to do. You deserve success more than anyone I know.

Cause I know what you want,

I think I know.