Dancing For the Cameras on the Traffic Lights

I changed my mind. I really do want to marry Anthony Green. I want to get in his head and see what makes him write this amazing fucking music.
Jordan and I had a nice talk today about relationships, and how you know you're over it, and how you'll never REALLY be over it. I came up with the "brilliant" (or so he thought) idea of dating!! What do you know?!?! Something adults have been doing for YEARS! You know, when you go on a few dates to see if spending time with someone is actually worth it. Instead of shuffling around the idea of a relationship like a fucking idiot. I'm so over "talking" or just jumping into something and calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend. I don't think it's necessary. Jordan was just so amazed by the idea. "Dating!! That's a REAAALLY great idea!" he said. Just the concept excited him. And so we decided dating would be a great idea for us. He's got a girl he likes, and its so adorable. And me? Well, I'm still a little lost on finding someone dateworthy... The whole thing is that it's nothing too serious, feeling out the waters and whatnot. I think I like this "radical" idea. Its time to get back in the water. Its time to just go for it! I'm just over bullshit. I'm over myself! I'm over pitying myself. I'm over those stupid nights when I let my mind wander over into the "what ifs" and the reminiscing. It's fucking stupid, and it makes me feel like I'm not okay, when I know full well that I am. I'm fine by myself. It's not like I need someone to feel complete. I have the best friends I could ever ask for, and a good life. I'm 18, single and smart! I have no reason to be feeling sorry for myself at any time. I should be care-fucking-free.

AND I SHALL BE, DAMMIT!